my mind got my heart trapped in.

Mind Vs Heart

2010-02-03T23:08:00.000-08:00

how can the heart & mind feel totally opposite about a sitatuation almost as if your mind knows better than what your heart does even tho our mind are more concious then our hearts we subconsiously always "follow our hearts" but in the end we sometimes realize that our hearts can steer us the wrong way when emotions get involved, & even then our mind STILL knows whats right but there is not a way of communicating what we know is right and what we feel is right. so if we dont wanna listen to our minds and follow our hearts , what is the right thing to do .doesnt it feel like no matter how much thinking we do or what we choose to follow some way or some how its not what we really want.

This is a poem i found that i can relate to i didnt write it

but it seemed to go hand in hand with what i wrote above:

For a little while there,My emotions were all messed up.

But now I've found some closure,And my mind and heart made up.

My mind knew the whole while,That nothing would come to be.

It knew it was a spurt of time,Before you would be a memory.

My heart on the other hand,Never cared about the facts.

It knew you that would leave,

But was still waiting for you to come back.

My heart would not take the hint,

Though my mind was telling the truth.

My heart had decided,It was going to wait for you.

It took a lot of convincing,On my mind's behalf.

To make my heart realize,That you were not coming back.

My heart started to accept it,But then you popped back in my life.

My mind versus my heart,The battle starts again in strife.

So the war between the two,Went on for a little while.

My physical being paid for it,I never used to smile.

I'm not sure how it happened,But now everything is alright.

My mind and heart came to terms,Trust me, it was a fight.

My heart has finally realized,To put it's feelings to an end.

My heart now has the power,To now think of you as friend

My mind had to make a sacrifice,To help my heart along it's way.

My mind had to agree,That one day things may change.A

s hard as my heart is fighting,My mind won't let it love,

My inner turmoil is over,My heart is now locked in a steel glove.

Written by Lilsnob

"Never" - By : Myself

2010-01-07T19:12:00.000-08:00

Take me places; i never been before
Like a one on one strole down the oceans shore.
Tell me things that i have never heard before;
Like trish i cant get enough of you; all i want is more more more.
Show me things that i never seen before; like the hiddin secrets of an old told Folklore.
Kiss me like you’ve never want to stop
Like a flood with consistent rain drops.
Love me like you’ve never loved before
Like the pain in your hurt you just cant ignore
Need me like you never needed, the way you need a way
To put the pieces of your heart together
When you found out your spouse has cheated.
But theres just one thing I never need you to do
And that’s hurt me the way she hurt you

"Romeo & Juliet" - Written by: Justin

2009-11-01T21:38:00.000-08:00

this is a beautiful peom written by a friend of mine,

i fell inlove with this poem not only cause i lovee

the story of Romeo & Juliet, but the words are so

powerful and captivating, hope you guys enjoy :)

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ROMEO & JULIET

this juliet was bleeding

her soul's bright fire dim
in a life of sorrows
it was sink or swim
on the shore she saw him
a romeo, prince of the night
against all odds she reached out
and turned from garish light
then he pulled her from the tide
saved the dying maid
she afraid to love him
and yet by her side he stayed
with blind faith she followed
into his shadow she fell
seduced by black and velvet
drunk of passion's spell
a day spent long in bliss
a moment meant so much
and no more was this juliet
starved from love's sweet touch
then the darkness overcame
in silence he left her there
never saw her tears fall
or heard her heartstrings tear
left alone in pain
once again she did bleed
shackled by other's power
longing to be freed
once again, yet time was short
in twisted fate they met
in shaded seconds spent together
yet no where did they get
again ripped apart by time
and distance seals the fate
now all this juilet feels
is pain, despair, and hate
she cries without a tear shed
she lives without a soul
she curses the one she loves now
for everything he stole
'I love you' she did long to hear
but these were words he never said
and now this juliet lays weeping
and wishes she were dead

Poetic Bloodlines.

2009-11-01T21:18:00.000-08:00

i thank god for the poetic blood that runs through my viens,

cause at times when there's not an ear to hear,

i step into the isolated world where

my pen becomes the speaker and my paper becomes the listener

and everything becomes more clearer,

and i am no longer mis-understood.

I Shouldve Known Better ....

2009-07-10T21:26:00.000-07:00

when we met it wasnt out of command;

but it definitely was
something i couldnt withstand.
when i first layed eyes on yu
i didnt realize what i was getting myself into.

i shouldve known better...
who wouldve known after the first day

something i thought was strong could quickly slipaway.
i shouldve known better..
the nights we stood up telling each other our deepest secrets ,
even each others limits. you was afraid,
i was afraid, you wanted love i wanted love ;
you wanted me & i wanted yu.
but even through all of that ;
yu still dont believe what i say is true.
i let my guard down to let you in ;& to give
what you always wanted.. that "deep love ' n"
i shouldve known better..
sorry if i fell too fast ; but its hard to treat
my emotions like an outcast.
maybe my deep loving was a little bit overwhelming ,
but wasnt that what yu wanted?
well at least thats how you portrayed it.
i shouldve known better...
then "love" happened & i couldnt controll it
so i held those words in until i was ready to submit.
afraid that you wouldnt feel the same ;
but shockling you agreed ; agreed
to feel the type of feelings that i felt for yu ;
you felt for me. but then things got shakey ;
i shouldnt known better..
i made the mistake & violated your trust;
but i begged for forgiveness & i was honest.
didnt think that was enough to break what yu
claimed we had, & what i thought we had.
i shouldve known better...
i guess you deal with things different,
but forgiving me you wouldnt..
i wanted to be that one girl who you can run to
no matter what, that you can talk to about anything,
share moments, feel unconditionally loved...
but you doubted me & stuffed me in that same category.
you would never know that love that i was capable
of giving , that type of love that would
make you feel like your dreaming.
but i shouldve known better
its almost like i keep singing yu the same love song
but u aint home , so i guess u aint tryna hear it
like im screaming from a soundproof booth
& you wont turn around to see my crys.
open your heart up give hope another try.
but i cant keep visiting a home that doesnt want me..
but i shouldve known better
that if you really loved me you wouldve
been able to feel that i am real just
like the butterflies i get when your
around, i guess u can say that your love
has left me dumbfound.

just to sum it all up;
i shouldve known better
than to fall & not get back up...

Top Movies In 09' So Far.

2009-06-28T15:11:00.000-07:00

I have to say that The Proposal, & Transformers 2 are my 2 new FAVORITE movies of 09' if you havent seen these movies you have to go see the ASAP lol i dont want to be a spoiler for the ones who havent seen it ,but if you havent go go go ! lol they are a must see, i can see them again && once they come out on DVD i have to buy them lol so go see these 2 movies,trust me its worth it ! ENJOY!

R.I.P Micheal Jackson

2009-06-28T14:21:00.000-07:00

I know im blogging about this sort of late lol, but i want to take my time out to honor Micheal Jackson, he was a phenomenal person, great dancer, great singer, & the list goes on he was practically everyone's idol i am only 18 but i swear to you lol i know ALOT of this man's songs, people laugh when they go in my ipod and see how many of his songs that i have lol, hes just amazing im not going to lie after he changed skin colors and got alot of plastic surgery & started wearing eye liner & red lipstic i thought he was so wierd, but then again who am i to judge, only god can judge this man, but he was so talented & he will live on forever. He went through alot in his life time , & knowing the hard child hood he suffered he became a strong individual , i think his best albums was "BAD" & "THRILLER" i can name multiple songs of his that i hear almost everyday , my all time favorites are "The Way You Make Me Feel", "P.Y.T" , "Rock With You", "Billie Jean", "Thriller", "Man In The Mirror", oman the list goes on lol , but this guy was incredible & i feel as if god took him because he completed his deeds in this lifetime, so when people say he's gone so soon, we cant really say that because everything does happen for a reason, hes mission was completed & i think this man impacted TOO many lives, hes just amazing , even i tried to moon walk a couple times in my life lol & even try to do the crotch grabb lol but i really cant LOL ! so i want to say RIP to Micheal Jackson he was an idol to everyone, & may he rest in peace.

Megan Fox

2009-06-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

"There once was a little girl
who never knew love until
a boy broke her heart"

i think this is one of the most POWERFUL quotes & tattoo's that i have ever seen, one this woman is beyond gorgeous & i think the place where she put this quote was just so creative , & not to the mention the quote is TRUE ; i dont think anyone would understand what love is until we get hurt or heart broken, i guess its really true when they say we have to experience the pain to know happiness, after seeing this tattoo lol i was like OMG i want one ! just like this it just so powerful & have so much meaning, & its something that i can relate to; i really hate those stupid w.e tattoos that have NO meaning at all lol i think its just a waste. but i just wanted to share this with ya because i think its phenominal. ♥

Shes So Confused; She Knows She Deserves Better.

2009-06-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

so its 11:50 on a thursday night; & so many things are just running through my mind. just situations, emotions, certain people etc. i havent been like this is in a while, but its getting harder & harder for me day by day to hide what i feel inside. i was once told "never put your heart in your mind's position" ; because you will always find yourself making hasty decisions. so i must admit that ; yes that is true. i have a hard time with "letting go" & sometimes accepting the things that i "cannot change" or maybe im just a dreamer' that "hopes" a little bit too much..? i dont understand how a person like me; can never be satisfied when i dont ask for too much, quite frankly i dont think i ask for enough..many say i settle for less, yes i know i "deserve better" but how will i know what im falling for if i dont give it a chance? it seems to be that i fall for what you would call disguises. people that come off a certain way but later down the line when they get to comfortable they switch up & then its not like its easy to forget about them because you have already caught feelings for them...am i right? why do i dwell so much, why do i care so much? am i just another sucker for love? those type of people who fall for all loves traps yet still go on with the search? i think its because i have so much love to give & so much love to offer that i keep on putting myself in danger, so what do you do when you have "a heart to big" for someone else to love? a "heart to big" for someone else to complete? should i give up because love doesn't want me? i mean its obvious ; & plain to see. yes of course i am human & i have made mistakes, i am not perfect but for the love i am capable of giving i know i deserve much better then what is being given to me. am i right? or maybe its just not my time yet. so im confused; not sure where to go ; not sure what to think; not sure what to do, not sure who to trust, not sure who to believe, the list goes on & on.

who doesn't lonq for someone to hold
who knows how to love yuh without being told
somebody tell me why im on my own
so here i am aqain, going in circles that never ever end
trying to find my way to happiness but i guess for
now ill just pretend .

First Time @ Planet Hollywood

2009-05-17T19:01:00.001-07:00

So saturday I went out to eat at Planet Hollywood in Times Square for the first time, lol it was a great place by the way and very fun i liked all the little props they had from movies and like the hand print sculptures from celebrities and all the extra cool stuff you know. LOL the food was good too i had some appetizer called "chicken crunch" and the bread crumb that they fry the chicken with has Captain crunch and frosted flakes in it lol mad good and then for like a main course meal i had chicken Alfredo lol hit the spot. Its really cool like they play music and stuff while you eat i requested a song and they played it really really cool lol and they people were nice also. But what i kind of found weird was when i went to the bathroom, before i went to the bathroom i noticed alot of Caucasian people that works there; but whatever lol so i go to use the bathroom and i noticed that there was an african american women standing there; i thought she was just cleaning the bathroom and stuff you know lol so im done using the bathroom and im looking for the soap machine ; tell me why this poor lady is standing beside me with a bottle of soap and napkins in her hand im like wth? so she offers me soap and i put my hand out and she squirts the soap in my hand so im like ok in my hand im like why do they have this lady doing this ; theres machines for that. So after im done washing my hands she passes me the tissue im like thank you; and shes like your welcome in such a depressing tone; i found it ironic how i didnt see not one african american person working like on the floor and shit and then when i get to the bathroom i see an african american women standing there putting soap in peoples hands and giving them tissue; like wtf? theres machines that do that ; that was some slave shit smh i was really bothered i wish i had money to give her like a 5 $ tip smh it really made me think smh; then when i go back to my table and im about to leave ; i see that the people who cleans up after everyone is mexican. SMH i was like WOW! is it me or does anyone else realize the wrong picture here? lol i was really really mad smh but i needed to share that with ya lol other then the fact that i thought that place was a little racist; its a great place to eat at and very fun lol check it out :)

Happy Mother's Day

2009-05-09T21:13:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day
I want to take this time out to say Happy Mother's Day to these 3 very important beautiful ladies in my life. (left to right) my aunt, grandmother, & mother. Without these ladies I wouldn't know what to do with my life; they keep me sane and are always there for me with support and unconditional love; i couldn't have asked for better role models in my life; I love them with all my heart and soul and even more. These strong ladies is who made me who i am today. The are amazing in every way ; and i wouldnt trade them for the world; and i thank god everyday for the time that i spend with them and i am blessed to still have them in my life; because i think i will go mentally insane (literally) without them. People take the time to thank your mothers, grandmothers etc, because their love is like no other love. Ma, Grandma & Titi I love You; Hope you's really enjoy ya' Mothers Day :D I Love You's Once again lol <3.

Ken & Barbie 101 (REAL TALK)

2009-05-06T19:34:00.000-07:00

"sometimes I feel like I'm sittin' in the back row of Barbie and Ken 101 a class we are all in, but never seem to learn from"
i have to say that this is the realist shit that i have ever heard in my LIFE! this guy spoke the honest truth about our modern day "society" & the pressure it puts on people to look "perfect" this isnt the only real thing this guy has spoke about but when i heard this my jaw DROPPED! i was speech-less . listen to EVERY single word that comes out his mouth; he sorta reminds me of eminem but his words are the truth maybe if we had more people like him in this world and see things the way he does this world wouldn't be so fucked up & forcing people to look a certain way so that they can be labeled as "BEAUTIFUL" he says in this video that "skinny is a compliment" smh isnt that sad that these ideal images are so deeply drilled into our heads that we think its OK to live up to these expectations? (it saddens me)
FAVORITE PART:
f**k Barbie and Ken
My future daughter will never play with them
you're the reason bleedin' 15 year old girls arms are slit
You made 12 year olds think skinny was a compliment
And now it's too late
I can't write my way through this bathroom door
So I raise my hand in class cuz I can't stand it any more
Teacher teacher your lectures all backwards
You got mothers and daughters forgetting what matters
Cuz above tits, ass, lips, legs, and ugs
The most attractive women are the ones who don't give a f**k
So screw your teachings your lessons and plans
You skewed sick distant relative of the man
Your plan for brainwashin' my baby I reject
I'm walkin' out of this class, and I will proudly take, my F

"To All The Boys I've Loved Before"

2009-05-06T16:42:00.001-07:00

"whats clouded in darkness; will always comes to light"
"i guess shit happens"
"its better to have love lost then to have not loved at all"

when i seen this for the first time i got goosebumps and i felt her anger and her fustration; not only could i relate but her words was so powerful; if i was in that audience she wouldve got a standing novation. sometimes guys dont understand how much pain us women go through & how much suffering we endure this is why i love poetry so much and even spoken poetry because it is so powerful; i mustve listened to this about a million times and still get the same reaction. definitely one of my favs.

"Hate Letter To Love"

2009-05-03T20:06:00.000-07:00

Dear Love,
love, ohh! why are yu so hard? i try & try but get close..no cigar. i wish the joy you bring could be bottled up & frozen, so i can take it out & feel it when its my pillow im holding. you make the strongest weak, & the weakest strong, but i never quite know whose side your on. the practical jokes yu play are really not funny its like telling me i've won a million dollars but in my account theres no money. yu constantly put me in places where i find the one ive hoped too, & then they're not ready for me, or you, then its not like my disappointment would just fade with no pain, NO i gotta work to forget cause your type of feelings gets embedded in my frame. i dont know about others, but damn im tight, why must yu make such wrong things feel so right? why must yu uplift & make me feel so good? then take the air out of my sails & make me wish i could forget about yu & everything yu mean. NO cause im a natural addict for yu & cant help but fien, so now i try to not care but to no avail, cuz the more i try is the more i realize ive failed, now at all good situations i wince & harden cause of the PIAN that i MAY receive, & even if it never comes & im wrong, i still perceive the bad, because i no longer believe in yu now even good people that i chose to hold, i never let close, noone visits my soul, because of that void yu left, that big gaping whole in my heart, my innocent vessel that was as pure as gold, now im a mess who no longer can deal, & ive forced myself to percieve only the bad & forget to feel. ive thrown out the rules, pulled my hair & felt filfthy now NO ONE is innocent before proven guilty, & im stuck trying to be tough pondering on.....what do i do now that the love is gone? im tired of the crying & tired of my tears, & these god forsaken down days where you cause me to remember EVERY failed attempt ive had over the years so im hating on YOU yes YOU, who stole my ability to trust, in anyone, making NOONE equal to that one love, noones good enough im trying to take a stand because i refuse to let you win, i wont aid in my own tragedy by submitting to your wicked ways of fustration & manipulation
*sigh* so yes, as i lay here in the dark, with tears from you, i wish i could attain your clever ways so me to cound find just the right way to get over you........love.

Hatefully yours,
Trisha.